"What is she gonna talk about now?"

Basically, I've always been the "fat friend", the "fat cousin", the "fat ____" you fill in the blank. Started gaining when I was young, around 8 or 9 years old. From then on I just kept getting bigger and bigger. I can diet and lose weight, but I can't keep it off by myself. I did this surgery to feel better. To be healthier. To give myself a chance to live longer. I want to know what it feels like to walk the mall without breathing hard and feeling like I'm gonna keel over! I want to ride bikes with my family. I'm going to be successful this time.

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Two months out from WLS

And I'm so happy I had this surgery and would do it over again. As of today I have lost a total of 62 lbs, with 38 pounds of that lost just since the surgery. Already, I can walk longer and stand on my feet for longer periods of time without hurting. I can breathe better. I can sleep better. I am excited to get to 100 lbs lost, because I can't even imagine what things I'll be able to do that I have either never been able to, or at least not in a very long time. But I need to cool my jets! One day at a time, Lori. It's a process. 

The emotions are still running wild from the hormone dumping but I noticed the more exercise I get the better I feel. I need to hit the gym more often. I feel like I'm starting to get some energy, too. I am not too tired to cook now when I get home from work and I feel like I can spend more time doing what needs to be done instead of being so tired I just want to sit on the couch or sleep. This is real progress. 

Here is a side by side of me that I just did today. In the black tank it's the day before surgery. In the blue....that's me today. Not a huge difference yet, but I can see it in  my face and upper body. 

  I made this WLS friendly casserole for my lunches this week, plus enough leftover for a meal or two for my guys. Bariatric Foodie is one of my absolute favorite sites for meal and protein shake ideas. She had the surgery herself so she knows what she is talking about! Check her out!

I went to the gym today and did 30 minutes on the treadmill. I tried the elliptical a few weeks ago, but could not do over a measly 3 minutes! It looks like so much fun that I can't wait to build up endurance and leg muscles to really get on it and go. I know I should not feel this way but it's embarrassing to get on it and then get off 3 minutes later. I feel like all the athletic people are snickering. Still working on that self esteem issue. ;)

Monday, September 02, 2013

Emotions, NSV's, and Little Bits

Last week I went back to work for the first time after my surgery and was overwhelmed by the reaction I got from my friends and co-workers. Apparently we don't see the change in ourselves as much as others do and last week proved that to me. All positive comments, lots of hugs of congratulations and welcome back. It felt great and meant a lot, but in the same token was a bit overwhelming because I am not used to getting so much attention. I will have to adjust to that from what I have read on other WLS blogs and forums. 

NSV's (non-scale victory) for the past week: 

1) I was able to get up earlier than I did preop and actually take the time to blow out my hair, put on some makeup and, most importantly, eat a healthy breakfast. Before surgery I would shower, let my hair dry naturally and run out the door. I would grab a drive-thru high fat, high calorie breakfast or a Starbucks on the way. Bad, bad girl! I also packed my lunch the night before and ate it instead of eating the lunches we get from the drug reps. 

2) Geekboy (DH) and I went shopping in San Jose yesterday and walked, walked, walked. Normally my feet would be killing me and I'd be pooped out before we even finished. Not this time! And my feet are not even hurting today. This feels really good. I feel like I am starting to live life again instead of watching everyone else live it!

3) I fixed dinner every night after work. Preop I would have been too tired and probably grabbed junk through drive-thru or had Geekboy bring junk to us since he gets home after I do. I think back now and really look at how much junk I was eating and I'm astounded. My poor body being put through that. Ugh! 

One scale victory this week -- I FINALLY broke my 10 day stall. I was not completely freaking out yet because I know they will happen, but I gotta tell ya I was sure getting frustrated! I feel so much better being 3 lbs away from 300 rather than only 1 lb! LOL Ridiculous, I know. 

Hormone dumping also began this week. Holy crap! Happy, sad, pissed off, giddy, crying, wanting to tear someone's head off......it has begun. I'm hoping it doesn't last long! I'm certainly getting a lesson of "breathe and count to 10". 

I made some of these today to have for breakfast this week. Yum! Next I'm going to mix some tuna salad together for my lunches and make Geekboy and I salads for tomorrow night's dinner. I have a support group meeting after work and he will not be home from his work until around 9:00. My salad consists of maybe 5 butter lettuce pieces, 3 ounces grilled chicken and 1 cube of diced reduced fat cheese and fat free dressing. I can't wait to start trying more fresh veggies to add to it, but I can't eat that much yet! 

Here we go into another week............