"What is she gonna talk about now?"

Basically, I've always been the "fat friend", the "fat cousin", the "fat ____" you fill in the blank. Started gaining when I was young, around 8 or 9 years old. From then on I just kept getting bigger and bigger. I can diet and lose weight, but I can't keep it off by myself. I did this surgery to feel better. To be healthier. To give myself a chance to live longer. I want to know what it feels like to walk the mall without breathing hard and feeling like I'm gonna keel over! I want to ride bikes with my family. I'm going to be successful this time.

Sunday, February 02, 2014

Long Past Due..............

..........for an update. I hit my 6 months post op date in January so thought I better document my progress so far. I'm officially down 102 lbs!! I feel strange because on the scale I see it, in the way my clothes fit I see it, but my head is not grasping that I have lost 100 freaking pounds. LOL! I'm ecstatic, of course, but I sort of feel a numbness that makes me wonder why I'm just not getting it. When will it hit me?? 

Me today, after my workout:

Me 6 months ago:

I can see it here, but when I look in the mirror I see the before still. I suppose I'll catch up one day.

The holidays went better than I expected, although I still made some bad choices along the way. I made some not so good snacking choices and slacked on the protein a little too much, but I'm getting back on track with it and not going to beat myself up over it. I've been dealing with some personal issues as well that has added a TON of stress, which is beating me up at times, but I'm trying to learn to beat back. Hubby lost his job right before Christmas, addiction transference is becoming an issue and lots of stress at work. 

My health has not been bad, just having major hair loss and found out I may have some sort of food allergy that we can't pin down.  I broke out into hives/rashes a couple weeks ago and had to be on prednisone for a few days. I still get welts if I scratch. So itchy and annoying! On daily Zyrtec and cortisone creams.  We lost our insurance since hubby lost his job, but thankfully was able to get on mine after Jan 1st.   I'm meeting my new PCP this coming week. I'm hoping she has some knowledge with WLS, or at can direct me to someone who does. I miss my original bariatric "crew"! 

I will be flying back to the midwest in a couple weeks and am so looking forward to seeing my family and youngest son. He will fly home with me. Oh how I've missed him! I'm hoping I have lost enough weight that I won't need a seatbelt extender on the plane. We will see!